Monday, January 19, 2009

Imparfait

I, Sharon D’souza, am 27 5 ‘6 34-26-36 financially independent working in a famous media house /**..%$#@&)* *! (( !!!!

What else should I include in my “about me” section which makes me more datable among the Mumbai eligible single men? The target of finding a suitable match for me is tougher than meeting my targets during recession.

I wonder at times, why we are brought up believing in the existence of Cinderella’s god mother, the cobbler’s elves, Pinocchio’s wooden nose, Santa Claus, the magic wand and the happily ever after fairy tales? When we grow up to realise it’s not always the truth which wins and that more good; happens to the bad than to the good.

Well all these years, I have gradually given up the hope of fairy god mother or the elves to appear and help me complete my homework. I understand why the gifts went missing from my stockings, after I moved out of my parents place. But there is one story, rather a strong belief which I am unable to unbelive!! It’s so much ingrained in me, that it’s close to a dream. The much treasured dream of meeting my “Soul Mate”.

With the first guy, I strongly believed that the “dark, short, clumsy” frog would turn into my prince with the magic of my first kiss; but he didn’t. Then came in the new story with the new morale “You need to kiss a hundred frogs before you meet your prince” and religiously I practiced the preached.

Today, I am still in the race, far from 100 and I fear that my happily ever after fairy tale will never begin. But the more scary thought is that I have lost my soul mate – the one with the key to my heart, my dreams; as one of the frogs....

Did I loose my soul mate in search of perfection? And is it right to yearn for the perfect thing in this imperfect world? And can someone define “what is perfect” when neither I nor you is really perfect?

I ask my self which relationship was perfect? None. But then why am I not able to shed the imperfect hope of the Mr. Perfect’s arrival.

Isn’t it the imperfections which make our relationships different from the others, make them unique in their own special way? I am a single piece of a jig saw puzzle with its imperfect flawed corners for all but just perfect to fit for the right “one”. It is my imperfections which will make me perfect for my soul mate and complete my jig saw puzzle. And here my search for my imperfectly perfect soul mate continues.

Cheers to my imperfections – fat nose, big ears, big tooth....

I, Sharon D’souza, 27 ½ 5’4 without the heels dark bright eyes hidden behind specs is now single and ready to mingle!!!!